Miserable, fun, exciting, challenging .... anything but boring.
I got caught in the Raspberry bushes during heli rappels ... by the Colonel !!! Both he and my RI Plt Commander together. They were 5 ft. away from me. I looked them both in the eyes and they were watching me, looking at my hand, full of berries ... and for a moment, I actually contemplated the idea of jamming that handful of raspberries into my mouth, consequences be damned. Ever try to take away your dog's food dish while he's eating. At that moment , I felt like that hungry dog and did not want to give up my food.
After all, I was already busted ... by the Big Boys. I was sure they were going to expel me from school right on the spot. And send me home with no chance to recycle.
Fortunately, I came to my senses, forced myself to loosen my fingers and let those raspberries drop to the ground.
I think that's the only reason they didn't kick me out. They certainly had every cause to do so. I guess from their perspective, it was a "watcha gonna do now PL" moment.
I went 0-4 in 1st phase, but entered 2nd phase with a 1-3. I'm not going to share how I did that, but I will tell you I promptly failed my first patrol in mountains and became 1-4, so I was right back behind the eight ball again.
I got back-to-back patrols at the very end of Florida, so I was unable to zombie at all, or eat for the last two days in the field. And for at least the last week or more, I had no Ranger buddy and no map (RIs took it away from me). Sleep was no longer even a concept, and I was unaware of my hunger. It was a primeval 'mammoth hunter' surviving on the edge, type of experience.
My RI for my 9th and final patrol, his nickname was "No Go". And that ain't even the half of it.
Twice I managed to technically qualify myself for recycling due to patrol failures, but still found a way to advance. And two other times I should have been thrown out of school. Much worse than the berry incident. I think I even got myself banned from the gator lounge.
Some other highlights ... I was sick the day of the PT test at my marine base. My First Sergeant, a Ranger himself, refused to postpone the test. It was now or never. I accomplished everything even tho I threw up half way through, but I failed the run by over a minute. He allowed me to retest the next day.
And having to run several of the Queen's obstacles over and over again. I think I ran the cargo net alone 60-70 times. Having to peer out my own marine Ranger Buddy. Having to rescue my second buddy from hallucinations in the swamp. Having a one in a million rappelling mishap from which, after avoiding injury, I had to extricate myself. Midnite, and having the RIs send me off creeping into the darkness of the swamp by myself, buck naked and barefoot in my birthday suit, to accomplish a special task to help the rest of the Bn.
Early in 3rd phase, I screwed up so bad in front of the whole battalion ... everybody saw it. I thought the RIs were going to slap me in handcuffs, and march me off the base. But I stayed and accepted the fact that I had lost any chance of getting the tab. And that the RIs were just going to punish and torture me first before throwing me out .... if I was stupid enough to stick around.
Fuck it ... If they didn't physically remove me, I wasn't going to leave.
Being a Marine, I knew nothing of what to expect from the course except that, even if I passed, I would never be allowed to wear my tab on my marine uniform. I did not understand 'recycling', and thought it was a death sentence, I was determined to avoid it. I think that gave me an edge.
At the end, almost my whole squad had been wiped out. It was only me, and Army Capt. Mike H. left standing. (and a worthless gray ghost) I got chosen for point a lot in 1st phase, and out of all those guys, I always picked on Mike to be my compass man. The RIs even made sure I would end up leading the whole battalion as point man, for the very first full size patrol. Mike was kind enough to offer me a ride to his home where I could get a cab to the airport, more easily. I weighed 129 lbs at the end.
As luck would have it. Just prior to Ranger School, I spent 2 weeks bouncing around in amtraks, doing joint military maneuvers in the Mojave desert. Got back on a Friday, had Saturday off, and on Sunday, I boarded my flight from Cali to Georgia. Funny thing. While patrolling in the Mojave, I basically captured a Ranger Captain. Thanks to my Navajo point man who saw the Captain before he saw any of us. We creeped on him to less than 100 ft. of his position on the mountainside above us, and got set up. He had disappeared back behind cover again, so I used myself as bait to draw him out. It worked. The Ranger thought I was alone, and he was going to take me prisoner. Until he realized I had drawn him into my ambush of a dozen marines, and he was practically surrounded. I had a quick conversation with Capt. Gray Ghost, before I let him run away. My hands were tied, there was nothing else I could do. We were given orders not to touch 'enemy' soldiers, and we were out of time.
It may sound like I was a total screw up in RS, but for every terrible thing I had done, I did something totally outstanding to make up for it. And when the RI's needed someone to step up to the plate that they could really count on ... I was their "go to" man.
The last couple of hours of the course on my 9th patrol, they split us, and I had to lead 1/2 the platoon on maneuvers. "No Go" was gone. He had already given me a failing grade for the patrol. And he made darn sure everyone knew about it. But even tho I had already failed the whole course .... again, ... I was still in charge. When they split us, the remaining RI seemed to take a back seat, and it felt like the guys that were left, really became "my men" .... and I began to feel as if I were one of the RIs, myself. My men were all bleary-eyed and ragged, some more so than others, but I could still see respect and even awe, in some of those eyes, as they reclined on the ground, exhausted. Watching me strut around with that heavy pack, wound up, fired up, taking charge and working the situation. Heck, I think I even saw a little bit of awe behind the Instructor's eyes when he finally relieved me of duty. I was still all wound up, and hoping I could get a 10th patrol. I didn't know the class was over, and he was looking at me like, 'Jeezus kid ... you can calm the fuck down now'.
And during that last hour or so, the RI directed me to do a "special" maneuver. It was something I had done twice during the course. The first time I had to do it, I didn't think it was even physically possible and was sure I hadn't heard the orders correctly. It was a bad one. It was brutal.
And now we were all faced with doing it again. Only, one Batt could not do his part because of his feet. Which meant we would all be screwed if I couldn't find a way around the problem. I could not let my men down even though I had failed the course.
On the day of graduation for the rest of my class ... they reversed my last patrol.
And I attended the graduation ceremony, and got my tab.
I want to thank all my RIs for an excellent course, even No Go. In retrospect, a course that was excellently tailored to the individual. I don't know if it was by design, accident, or good fortune. Maybe a little of all 3. And a special thank you to my RI Plt. Sgt .... I think he was the only one that backed me up when the rest of the RIs wanted to see me thrown out or recycled.
And for any parents reading, the RI and Medic were there in less than a minute to evaluate my second Ranger buddy, and they did escort him out of the swamp immediately.
Personally, I was so blessed, I went thru the whole course without a scratch or a blister, not even a runny nose.
In Ranger School, every punishment is a reward, and every reward ... a punishment.
The point is, if you got an asterisk next to your name, or a target on your back, you are going to get better training.
And you are going to have better stories to tell than the rest of the guys.