Amazing the stories on this strand from young and older (not old, damn it!)-- and, it's lived on for 4 years running! I wonder, "madslashers1-2", did you have any idea when you posed this question the response you would get from your brothers?
To answer your question forces us, I think, to look DEEP-- for our reasons for wanting to be a Ranger, then the harder question of why we left (as we all must do sooner or later).......
"creeping death" said, "In some ways, leaving the Rangers is monumentally harder that getting into the Rangers. Getting there is an ordeal that lasts a few months, leaving there is an emotional battle that will be fought inside of yourself, to varying degrees, ever single day for the rest of your life."
For me, to answer is therapy-- I need to grasp why I chose to do what I did/didn't do and when. In the end, we all must be satisfied in the choice we made because we made it for good reasons at the time. Regrets are of the devil's hand, my brother.
By now, I hope you went wiith your gut instinct and have made whatever you decided work. Either way though, you'll ALWAYS have the experiences to reflect upon and rely on. NO BODY can take that away-- EVER!
When you are isolated from those who understand-- REALLY understand, do what I've begun to do after 24 years-- reconnect with your ranger buddies, not to relive the past, but just to be heard and understand again. That's all.
Good luck to all who are in the stage of life of "moving on" after the ranger experience.


