PAC Man wrote:Amazing the stories on this strand from young and older (not old, damn it!)-- and, it's lived on for 4 years running! I wonder, "madslashers1-2", did you have any idea when you posed this question the response you would get from your brothers?
To answer your question forces us, I think, to look DEEP-- for our reasons for wanting to be a Ranger, then the harder question of why we left (as we all must do sooner or later).......
"creeping death" said, "In some ways, leaving the Rangers is monumentally harder that getting into the Rangers. Getting there is an ordeal that lasts a few months, leaving there is an emotional battle that will be fought inside of yourself, to varying degrees, ever single day for the rest of your life."
For me, to answer is therapy-- I need to grasp why I chose to do what I did/didn't do and when. In the end, we all must be satisfied in the choice we made because we made it for good reasons at the time. Regrets are of the devil's hand, my brother.
It's true, I know a number of guys who wrestle with the mind fuck monster of leaving Reg. - definitely including myself. I think the GWOT only exacerbates that retrospective.
But I concur, regret gets you nowhere-fast. I think that mindfuck is representative of the dedication and devotion that got us there in the first place. Most of us always want to be on the mission, at the front of line, carrying the most weight, with the most responsibility. It's the "Send me first" mentality. Like the pastor's sig line- it's true.
So back to the original question- would you do it all over again?-
I challenge you to find me a batt boy that wouldn't.